My life is simple. I clean. I do laundry. I go grocery shopping. I have fun with my kids. I drive Lincoln and Lacey to the beach and we hang with friends. I cook. I put the kids to bed. I try to be the mom I want my kids to remember. I wait for Josh to come home late each night after long days of classes and studying. We are having a fun adventure. This Caribbean medical school adventure has been the hardest thing I have ever done.
Being married to a medical student isn’t easy. Witnessing my husband being stressed to the max. is hard especially when there is not much I can do to help. Other then washed his laundry and make sure he has meals ready for him when he comes home for a short study break to eat a quick meal and to say hi. I try to be there for him and support him. Days are long. It’s hard being a wife and not seeing her husband. But it makes it harder when your kids struggle with not seeing their dad as much as they would like to. With med school family time with dad is something we sacrifice. It's hard on all of us. But we try to make the best of it. We try to visit dad at school often and stay busy. Lincoln and Lacey do pretty good with it but every semester, near the end of each semester I witness them missing their dad more. From them asking for their dad more often, to emotional melt downs for their dad.
Things I have learned from our adventure here- I can do hard things. I have done things on my own that I never thought I would or could. I have learn to keep strong for my husband and kids.
I have learned how to cut Lincoln and Josh’s hair cuts each month to save money and will be keeping it up ones we leave the island. I’ve learned it’s possible to sleep on a double bed with Josh, but I miss my queen. I’ve learned how many materialist items you can go with out. Did you know I don't need a hair cut every 2 months, I can actually go a whole 20 months without one. I can go 20 months with out going to a movie theatre. It's been 20 months with out a dryer. I miss having a dryer. There are times when I'm doing my laundry and it takes 5 days for my load of laundry to dry after little rain shows that like to down pour for 15 mins ever few hours.
I have learned how to cut Lincoln and Josh’s hair cuts each month to save money and will be keeping it up ones we leave the island. I’ve learned it’s possible to sleep on a double bed with Josh, but I miss my queen. I’ve learned how many materialist items you can go with out. Did you know I don't need a hair cut every 2 months, I can actually go a whole 20 months without one. I can go 20 months with out going to a movie theatre. It's been 20 months with out a dryer. I miss having a dryer. There are times when I'm doing my laundry and it takes 5 days for my load of laundry to dry after little rain shows that like to down pour for 15 mins ever few hours.
I have learn to enjoy the moment your in life. Yes days might be hard and long but there is still beauty in each day. Love being able to see the island of St. Eustatius in the distance while driving around the hill. I love seeing the perfectly blue ocean and the palm trees, every where we go. I love watching the how fast the clouds move over St Maarten and how much lower they are here then Canada. I love how when it rains here, the rain clouds come out of no where and how it will down pours for 15 minutes and be hot and humid seconds after. I love being a wife to my best friend and mom.
Each day I miss Josh but there are still those shining moments that bless me with an overwhelming feeling of purpose. I know that being a loving, (striving to be) patient wife and mother are the two most noble and sacred titles I will ever hold, and I am so grateful for each day that I have to try to do my best! I'm also thankful that I have a husband who is so dedicated to his school.
Each day I miss Josh but there are still those shining moments that bless me with an overwhelming feeling of purpose. I know that being a loving, (striving to be) patient wife and mother are the two most noble and sacred titles I will ever hold, and I am so grateful for each day that I have to try to do my best! I'm also thankful that I have a husband who is so dedicated to his school.
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