Someone I Love Was Born Into Heaven

"Someone I love was born into heaven", even though I never met our little one; my love for them is still stronger than ever. I am a mom of a angel.

On September 26th my life changed. I was 15 weeks pregnant. Life seems to be going well, other then I had small amount of spotting for two days. Other then that I felt fine with no cramping, so I wasn't to worried. I was able to see the OB GYN  that day, thanks to a doctor at Josh's university he  attends who had connections at the hospital. At my appointment hey did a ultrasound, baby was measuring 11 weeks and there was no heart beat...

You never think something like this will ever happen to you, but you just never know. It's hard when we don't see the big picture of things. I don't know how I'm suppose to feel. I'm sad one minute then some what okay with it the next. I know this is something Heavenly Father wanted, I don't understand why but I still miss my baby. Im glad to know one day I'll get to meet my little one... It's just hard when you have one plan in mind. Then all of a sudden things change. It's hard to change what you thought what was suppose to happen... and go on with life.

 I know I need to pull my self together and try to be strong for  my family. I still need to be a good wife and mom they deserve. We can get through this... So lately I've been giving longer cuddles at night to Lincoln and Lacey and I've been making sure that when I say 'Just a minute', it really is just one minute. I'm trying to enjoy every minute of life a little bit more. Trying to be a better mom and wife, they deserve my best. I want to be the mom and wife, I want them to remember. Being more patient, loving, caring, respectful. I need to help make life happy for them... I know over time I will feel more at peace with what has happened.